(xo.)

my mom’s been my mom. i think the best thing anyone has ever done for me would be her saving for my education all of her life. putting me before her for 21 years. when i was 16, she gave me my car. she’s the easiest person to talk to. but recently, she brought me an elephant pin home from galveston a few months ago. maybe almost a year ago. i thought it was sweet because we hardly see each other these days and i knew she was thinking of me when she was out there. she said it reminded her of me. I’M AN ELEPHANT.

my dad bought me a bottle of wine the day before i turned 21. we shared it on the strand. also, he bought me something christmas of 2008 that i don’t think i will ever be able to part with. it breaks my heart thinking about it. i only pull it out maybe three times a year. it has to be a very special occasion. just like the times we get along. 

lizzy letting me live with her summer of 2007. dallas/fort worth was okay with me. i was fine with her. all of the time, everywhere. i miss my big sister/best friend. i was always laughing.

in second grade, my ~boyfriend~ gave me a fake flower and i was all “why didn’t you get me a real one?!” and he was like, “because this one will last forever!” AND I STILL HAVE IT ON MY DRESSER. <3.

andrew brought me sunflowers, a heating pad, cupcakes, wine, books and a movie after my accident in august. when no one else on earth came to see me. he traveled to NEW MEXICO with me to see one of our favorite bands together. he also packed me the most amazing lunch once. TURKEY/AVOCADO/SWISS and A MIX OF BERRIES and A CIGARETTE and DR. PEPPER IN A BOTTLE. i will never forget that lunch break. he also took me to see the nutcracker last christmas. and after, we went to a fancy restaurant and got mcdonald’s ice cream cones for dessert.

one night, i got off work and i walked up to my car, keys in hand, so pooped, ready to go and i found flowers. i got all freaked out thinking it was from a ~secret admirer~ and THEY WOULD BE WATCHING but they were from sweet deanna. the most pleasant surprise! also, all of our sing and dance alongs. and her birthday present to me this year was … wow. <3.

one night, when i was 14, my friends michael and kyle picked me up from a 15 i was in. i was wearing this light blue gown. (LOL) and we all went to this park and michael and i danced on a concrete star! michael ate at in-n-out in san francisco with me. i’d never been. kyle FORCED ME to watch the neverending story. oh god. he would always pick me up and take me away. AND ONE TIME HE LET ME PEE IN HIS TUB BECAUSE HIS TOILET WAS NOT WORKING.

this one time, joey drove from houston to austin to pick me up and we talked the whole way home. we didn’t sleep. he also packed me a lunch for a good two weeks and left little post-it’s for me to find with it. he’s also lit up candles spelling out certain things that made me want certain things. what he did yesterday though kind of tops it all. he likes to outdo himself everyday or something.

michelle made me pancakes once. and she did my kitty makeup last year for halloween. and gave me a snow white valentine’s day card when i was just getting to know her. she’s also held my hair back while i threw up into her toilet and listened to me cry. <3.

raul wrote a song for me. ipod still likes to shuffle it into my life every now and then it makes me miss being sixteen. he used to play for me when we were babies. he always did what he could for me. love that boy endlessly forever and always no matter what. 

sara is the best penpal. she kept in touch even though she moved to new york. and she held my hand at a bright eyes show in 2005 and she held my hand at a bright eyes show last month. she also got sno cones with me before i thought she was moving to philly forever. <3.

jennifer is also the best penpal. so glad we haven’t lost touch.

for my 18th birthday, a guy named phillip wanted to take me to the aquarium. his mom kind of spoiled it when she was on the phone with him asking how our date went. my mom wouldn’t let me go out. AND TO THIS DAY, I HAVE NOT BEEN ON THAT FERRIS WHEEL. 

felix bought me a ring and surprised me by leaving it in my mailbox. he also got my name on the list for the little secret polyvinyl show in champaign even though i haven’t seen him in years.

VANESSA LET ME STAY IN HER HOUSE FOR ALMOST A WEEK AND SHOWED ME AROUND THE CITY OF CHICAGO. ILU.

gabe bought me the entire season of freaks and geeks for christmas one year and i think it might be one of my most favoritest gifts ever. it was thoughtful. for him. anyway. i thought i lost a disc recently and i freaked out.

ezra kept me company on wednesday via text message. nick torres and mike kinsella live in our purple van with universes painted on it and LOTS OF CANDY AND ALL OF THE PUPPIES ARE ALSO INSIDE OF IT. 

kimberly let me live in her apartment in the summer of 2008. that summer was the best. what happened during the winter, not so much. but that summer, was so much fun and i miss having a friendship like that with someone. we were pretty much joined at the hip when we weren’t at work and we loved it.

I’VE HAD LOTS OF SWEET AND NICE PEOPLE DO LOTS OF SWEET AND NICE AND UNFORGETTABLE THINGS FOR ME, OKAY. good question. sorry if i bored yall. i remember everything.